Wednesday, December 01, 2004

TItle:UNFAir... unfair unfair
Date:1 DEC 2004
Time:12 11 am
I slept at 3am last nite.. n WOKE up at 10am in the morning! I laze on the bed thinking that.. I should get back to sleep cause... it isnt the right time for me to wake up as my darling wont b entertaining me much today for he is heading for his 3 buddy chalet today! Well... but just dunno why my MIND keep disturbing me from sleep and so.. I finally got up from bed n wash my face! I read the newspaper n the first page of HOME says a story abt... a girl who fell down from 4 story in SAC.. n it was reported as... SUCIDE case! Itx really omg! After reading all the papers... n that definitely includes CLASSIFIED page even though there is really no need for me to look for a job liao!! I read it cause my sis keeps encouraging me to go for manicure classes! Wahaha.. n so.. i'm searching for one! After reading session, I slack ard till when mummy ask me abt the photo that i need to enlarge yesterday!! I search for it.. n OH OH.... i realise that i left it ON THE TABLE last nite when i was having dinner in the KOPI TIAM! Mummy kept shouting at me when she found out.. N i was of course.. PISSED cause.. HELLO.... u think i wan 1 mehx!! She even ask me to go back to the coffee shop to find... PLEASE lo! Anyway... after the whole ranting SESSION... i kept searching for things to do BUT.. nothing seems to attract me into doing it! Went online n as usual.. FRENSTER.. again and I did my usual check up for new PHOTOx.. BUT nothing seems to change so i went on to my bulletin board..N tata.... THIS makes me... brighten up... GRADUATION PHOTO for this photo in my country club!! I was filled with jealousy upon reading that cause... there wasnt any graduation nite since my sister generation in my sch n when she had hers... IT was just held in that damn old sch...!! NOW... my country club.. n i heared that... 2 pple won a flat screen tv... HENG gao lao sai... !! http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=2134898706 >here is the link to the photos of some of the students in my previous sch!! THe girls look ok.. BUT GUYS... hmx... a total big turnoff! I was seriously laughing my head off when i heared from my fren that he saw a grp of KIDDOx dressing up smart BUT with a SPORT shoe to a GRADUATION nite!!! REally....omg rightx?? HAHA.... guys... please dun ever wear that ever again ok??

Tomorrow will b a party time in my darling's chalet aready n i'm so excited abt it! Gonna really find loadza things to occupy my day today like.. packing up my wardrop n maybe ROOM?? THank gawd that there will b SPORE idol today.. i'm gonna hear them sing! DOubt i will b watching the resultz cause.. i will sure cry if anyone leaves tomorrow cause.. I really support sly BUT taufik sing well... So haiya.. also dunno how la! Sch going to reopen liao.. n.. i think i'm quite prepared liaox! Kinda miss my frenx loadx lehx.. esp. Tiffie! She definitely rox! She'z my all time BABE that listens to my sorrow everytime whenever i need someone(haha... but i dunno whether anot she got SNORE whenever she listen anot... GOT ANot... tiffie???)! I miss the MAcdonald breakfast cause i dun eat any mac when sch holi starts... wahahha!!! I miss u all... lotx.. la!!!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004

TITLE:ERMx....
Time:2.19am
DAte:30th Nov 2004
I did something really horrifying today n god is gonna punish me for this! I LIED! YEs... i did! DARling... I'm gonna APOLOGISED it right here right now.. I'm really very sorry abt the whole issue today.. itx really my fault... n BLAME me..please DO! Well.. people in my MSN will defintely see that phrase for my nick as "I finally found the right guy to live with!" and i'm gonna tell u peepx the real reason behind this sentance! Though it may b STUPID and HURTING still.. i think TOUCHING is the right word to describe it! MY DEAREST frenx may never know the right FELICIA for i am always CHANGING! I can b very nasty n also sweet but how can u get my SWEET side?? Hmx... itx definitely by not irritate me! Never a fren can be close to me cause girls cant tolerate me much n GUYS.. well.. they hate me... or they love me and thus... NOT A TRUE FRENSHIP in the end! I feel lonely in this world filled with unexpected news and i seriously detest it loadx! Is it really so difficult to grab a true frenship? Why cant i just find a person whom i can rely on and shoot all my problems too without any fear? Why GUYS can never be just a fren to me?? WHY WHY WHY?? Having such a BIG QUESTION MARK in my life... well.... i just got one word to descibe it... SCREWED! Having thoughts that my very first real relationship can last long BUT... nehx.... that guy cheated my feelings! Not only my feelings that he hurt but also.. my whole damn IDIOTIC life! Life after that was even screwed cause there'z really no one whom i can trust especially guys and so.. I cant put myself in another relationship so fast! Though there was a chance for a new one BUT i chose to give it up and I certainly never regret it for he is now happy with his carefree life. After knowing my current bf.. as a FREN initially... I can proudly announce that my life was a 360 degree changed! He was the one who gain every trust and love back to me! Itx not that i'm proud or so watever... BUT which ever guy will get a girl a 100 over buckx necklace in within 2 weeks of relationship? WHO WOULD buy his gf a 40 over buckx skirt in within 3 days of relationship?? N now... who would buy tons of present for just a FRIEND whom he know her for just 2 mthx? Many would think that he's young... childish... ignorent and even bad looking but... HELLO... he'z mine! TO me... even though he isnt the perfect guy STILL.... i find his lurve care, concern, words and even heart is so much more perfect than anyone else! PEOPLE! LOOK HERE! Nothing in this world is so perfect.. though u may think that u're still young n that u shouldn't be committed to one relationship so fast.. THEN tell me.. when will b the right time? When the AGE is aready OVER? So wat are u going to do now?? FLirt all over n have a super carefree life? I'm already 18.. n soon the big 2 is coming... n once i'm 20... AGE just BOOM even without u knowing! N before u realise that u're 25... n everyone is getting married whereas u're not.. you start to get worried!! ITx always the CASE alright!!

My post for today.. is to Announce clearly that... in a relationship.. there is definitely obsticals and u cant just give up when u think that u're failing! Love is hard to be trusted and thus if YOU think that u got the right partner... try to understand him n treasure him for u gonna really regret seeing him/her holding someone elses hand in a wedding celebration with the big name up there! "I finally found the right guy to live with" will always b in my mind no matter wat! N for those who dunno who is the GUY still... hahaha...... u should noe.. la!

Wednesday, December 01, 2004