Ok! So another week just pass withough even realising it and before I knew it.. Its already 30th july! I guess.. I'm ready to annouce something really SHOCKING to maybe everyone's ears. I've ended a 3 years 7 mths relationship with him. There isnt any 3rd party or so watever but just that I have thought it through and think hard that this relationship is not gonna work out like how I wanted it to be. Since we are always quarreling abt friends, future and time.. I dun wish to drag it until the day we get married and start regretting everything. I'm more to a person to thinks about the future like howmany child we can have, the ability to bring up the kids, the kids name and the houses but for him, its more like.. walk one step, see one step kinda thing. I'm not trying to say that he'z not capable or so watever but just that maybe he needs time to change his mindset a little.
Many may think that it is due to the presence of lionel(yes... my ex boyfriend) that got me so brave to end this relationship. All I could say is, NO! Its not his fault. I believe that nothing can hurt a relationship if it is that strong and thus he is not to be blame and we are still friends after the breakup.
A message to you Darren:
I know I'm harsh towards you for this period. It touches me everytime when I see tears streaming down ur cheeks for the most number of times for this 3 years 7 mths. U tried ur ways to get me back that at times I feel like I'm a bitch when I ignore ur messages. I'm sorry but I really cannot meet u on this saturday for soccer.. I dun wish to drag it anymore. I feel that giving u empty promises isnt the right way to resolve the situation. STILL, I thank u for everything! Thanks for being there for me during my driving test, hospital, police case, chinese new year celebration and many more. U're indeed the bestest guy I ever known who tender me so much but sad to say.. there are way too many things to compromise. I love u once and therefore will always remember you as my Chan Dai kor. Thanks for introducing me the family and frens too.. they are really a nice bunch of pple. Take good care of urself and all the best! I'm sure that ur family is always there for u. Like wat gerald kor kor says, friends comes and goes easily, gf can dun have but FAMILY only got 1! SO.. treasure! Study ahrd and work hard to make them happy! :)
Apart from the sad side, I went clubbing on wed with huifang! GODNESS! Never was I high until that crazy! I drank 2 pineapple rum, 2 vodka ribena, 1 tequilla shot and a few shooters. Wasnt that gone when I hail for the cab to zouk but upon reaching there, I'm crazy! Met Ah du and frens. Dance the whole night with them esp. my cute OPTICIAN! They were bad enuff to stop me from drinking everytime i get drinks from them. #@@#$%#%#@! Tallie was nice enuff to send us for tea breaks and then home. FINALLY I get to seat on his Zhng car! Hahahahha! There were many crazy photo takings that night... but I'm still waiting for Huifang to send me! QUICK! Heheheh! Alrighty.. gtg now to pack my room! SATURDAY IS COMING! Wooohoo!