After the breakup, we just didn't want to contact each other as we had our own lifes during that time. But at times, we still do think of each other just that we didnt bother abt msging or contacting. I was totally in lurve with my bf and I just didnt take notice abt anything. It was last year that we started the msn chat which ended up to a phone call. Everything just got back on track from then but due to the fact that I still do have some feelings for my ex, I just had to be the bad gurl who leaves him with hope. We met up a couple of times and there were a few times when he jotted down his thoughts on my diary. AFter my breakup with my ex, I still did not want to give him any chances, but the way he dote on me and pamper me just makes me few so important. I just like the things he is doing now though we seldom meet. The calls and talks seems so short but it really did make me feel missed and stuff. Be it just a sweet talk session, I'm still willing to treasure this very moment and not yearn what will happen in the future. Bu zai hu tian chang di jiu, zhi zai hu chen jing yong you.

Probably, many think that I'm so cruel towards D but come to think of it.. I really tried my best in securing the relationship but nothing is happening. I dun feel that important with D.. but i feel that that he is important to me that I have to make sure he is well taken care of. Whatever it is, I'm really happy with my life now with Lionel although he isnt physically available for me for many days. He has chase me for 7 mths.. and we had been through so much ups and downs.. I believe he will be my last one and also I will be his last one!

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