Am feeling really tired now! Got to sch at 8am in the morning cause I stayed over at his place and he have to reach sch at 8! Head feeling heavy and tired! And.. thanks to Mr Benedict that I have to wait until 5pm till he reached! Wont be going anywhere tonight.. I guess! Dear have to meet his frens.. and NO ONE wants to meet me today! None was free! Guess I have to just stay on my bed and Zzzz! But before I Zzzz.. i shall tire myself to the max first in order to sleep till tomorrow morning! I wanna see K.. but FARK.. no one is available for me! I hate it so much when such things happen! Really feel that Gurls shouldnt feel so weak at times.. I NEED MORE FRENS! Gurl frens who are single.. PHONE me.. CALL me!
Dear have been nice to me last night! Felt a little wierd but.. itz really nice of him lar! Hope the love will just last forever.. and not just a day. He asked me last night if I will leave him.. I silent for awhile and ask him why such question.. and he said that he needs to prepare himself! I was like... OK!! Gave him the letter of my own personal feelings.. and I doubt he have read it yet! He claims that he wanna read it alone.. and he ask if there'z any sentance saying " I cant take it anymore" or "I wanna break up" in that letter! He felt a little fearful.. i guess!
Tried to swallow those heartbreaking words and found out that my hp of draft column is just the place for me to rant. I guess he saw it.. but I dunno how he felt at that pt of time. I'm too tired to think anything.
Like wat guotang says.. WHY THINK SO MUCH when you know the more u think.. the more u feel sad abt it! Lose a fren whom I dear last few days. He just lose contact with me out of a sudden. Felt a little lost.. but I dun wish to hold him back if he chose to backon out. Just wish him all the best and.. phone number DELETED! I hate such pple loads.. he can be the sweetest guy but when he just dun feel like contacting.. NOT EVEN a msg can be seen!
15 more mins and Ah ben will be coming to see my proj! I seriously ahve no idea whatx happen with my proj. CANNOT insert and delete... FOR DUNNO WHAT REASON! I gave up already! Called some teachers for help.. but non was available for me! FUCK lar! Why m I in such deep shit now! I hate my life seriously!